Oh my God. [He can see that he's freaking Kevin out, but honestly, good. He rubs his hands together agitatedly and glances around -- no one's looking yet. That's good, too. Still, he moves closer, drops down to a whisper.]

I didn't mean it to sound like I was proud of any of that, because I'm not. The money, all that, it wasn't worth it. Not for what I went through. Not for the damage I did. My deals, you know -- they're all about undoing some of this shit. And I... [He rubs at his mouth again, tries to calm down.] I just want better for you, man, because me, I only stuck with it so long 'cause it felt like I had no choice. Like there wasn't nothing else I could do. Okay?